girlfriends, whaaa happpeennn?

I think it just hit me, how much we have all lost.
and it's really, really sad for one collection of like minded and like hearted people to lose that much love, to dissolve that much respect and history.

(nothing is irreversible)

ALSO

I could use some more warm Madrid evening time 

instead of being cooped up in raincity 

sadgirl

now that I don't drink away my feelings anymore I just feel them and it kinda sucks

oh god

why did you leave us

we need you so badly

mcqueen, x, x, x

dreamlife/reallife

your absence pervades my dreams
I searched for you for hours last night
and woke up
again and again
confused
at being
alone in our bed

I meeza summer

can't wait to roam the streets in hotpants again 

(strathcona night adventure, summer 2010) 

happy international women's day

thinking of all of the beautiful women in my life today 

I'm blessed with so many 

and you are all meaningful people in my life

keeping me grounded 

lifting me up

thankyou for everything

my grandmother, Natalie Arbuckle (nee Natulka Yarme), a few days before she passed. 

(June 2005)

Bobka you will always be in my heart and mind as the hell-raising opinionated hilarious and sweet woman you always have been. 

wish you were still among us kitten

what my girlhood dreams were made of

the pas de deux from Carmen, with Karen Kain as the prima

Carmen was always the naughtiest of the classical ballets. I was the kid who got kicked out of class for messy hair-buns or laughing during barre or forgetting my tights. When I got older and developed a charming I-dont-give-a-shit attitude we used to do a shot of whiskey before class. You can see why Carmen kinda spoke to me.
some call it nostalgia. I still want red pointe shoes.

sadgirl

I miss my sweet kitten already